Today’s Reading was Hard.

 I automatically got in such a bad mood after reading the Word. Yep, reading the Bible got up under my skin and I was mad. 
I tried calming down for a good hour but struggled. I asked myself all types of questions as to why I was so frazzled. And NOTHING! 
Just empty silence and all the feels. 
Now I’m lying in bed and truth came over the course of a few hours. 
I was reading Genesis 6-9, the history of Noah and the flood. 
I got so mad because I feel so inconvenienced by God!!! My life isn’t at all where I thought it’d be by now. Reading the Bible didn’t put me in a bad mood, the revelation that came from reading truth did. My flesh slammed on the breaks and went into defense mode before I even realized what happened. 
But the thing is all the people God used in the Bible – their life by “the world” standards was considered a MAJOR inconvenience. Noah’s call was to build an ark for rain, something no one had ever seen or felt. Yet, he did it anyway because God told him to. He trusted God in the completely unknown to do something only God alone could do. Noah trusted God’s words and worked diligently to complete the task set before him. It was hard work, exhausting and trying. When the time came for God’s words to come to pass, He shut Noah in a box for 370 days for safety and survival. 
My flesh didn’t want to receive the truth on my thoughts towards this. 
I’m not locked in a box. I wasn’t commissioned to save mankind or two of every species. Thank Jesus!! But what I consider to be an inconvenience in my life shouldn’t frazzle me or stir my emotions. The inconvenience is there to try me and make me holy. It’s to test my faith and cause me to rely on a God who can make a way where there isn’t one. All the people God used in the Bible had a HIGH threshold of inconvenience. 
Now that I have repented and laid it all down before the throne. I feel honored to be inconvenienced by a God whose ways are so much higher than my own. 
“Let your will be done on earth, in me, in my life, in my mind, and in my heart as it is in heaven. In your eyes, in your heart, as Your will declares. Amen.